Friday, November 20, 2009

Guide me oh Lord, for I am yours . . .

There is so much on my heart and mind right now. I feel like a big lesson is about to come into my life.

There is a lot of apprehension within me too, and I don't like it at all. I want to be open to whatever is coming my way, but I'm scared of screwing up and having to learn a painful lesson. I've had enough painful lessons recently.

I'm learning to give God my time. I've always been open to him and we've always had a relationship, but when it came to prayer and devotion time I wasn't doing that. It's just never been a part of my life. But God gives so much to me and all he asks is for me to give him my time and love. I want to be someone he can be proud of, and I can't grow if I don't let him in.

God, I am yours. I'm letting go of the apprehension and fear - what do you want me to do; what are you telling me right now?

Rid my body of the negativity, anger and hurt - let me move forward from things that do not matter to you.